Pondering ...

I was thinking today, How could anyone not say that my unborn child is not a live child. I feel him move and it brings life to me. My day can be bad and I can feel down, but let that child move or kick and my whole day changes!

In my Human growth and Development class the textbook talked about all the things that have to work together for a woman to conceive. It's such a miracle! Then when I think of all the things that had to happen for me to conceive, I am just in awe!

Sometimes I think the reason this baby boy came along when he did was for God to show his glory and mercy. He waited for the doctors to do their thing and then when that failed, he showed his awesome compassion and mercy. I am so blessed.
My son is here with me now and no matter what happens, he is alive and is loved unconditionally. Everyday is a testimony to God's love.

Words do not describe the feeling in my heart when my Bobby talks to the baby. He sings to him and tells him about what life is going to be like when we can actually hold him in our arms.
This has been an experience that I never thought I would know. All because of the mercy and compassion of my heavenly Father.

Bobby has given me a paper with scriptures on it to help when I worry about our son.
One that sticks out to me is Psalm 86:5
"For thou, LORD, art good, and ready to forgive; and plenteous in mercy unto all them that call upon thee."

I was upset with God when our five foster children had to leave. I loved them more than myself.
It took a while but I realized they didn't belong to me, God allowed them to bless our lives for a time. I had to give them back to God and let him restore their family. It wasn't until I finally released them in my heart that God blessed me beyond measure. We still have a call to help children and I would take in as many as possible, but God saw my heart and gave me a forever child.

I don't know how God would work in your life and I can't promise that he will do for you what he did for me, he might do much more, but in releasing my hurt and anger I found peace and I was grateful just for that.

I believe in miracles! How about you?