I was thinking today, How could anyone not say that my unborn child is not a live child. I feel him move and it brings life to me. My day can be bad and I can feel down, but let that child move or kick and my whole day changes!
In my Human growth and Development class the textbook talked about all the things that have to work together for a woman to conceive. It's such a miracle! Then when I think of all the things that had to happen for me to conceive, I am just in awe!
Sometimes I think the reason this baby boy came along when he did was for God to show his glory and mercy. He waited for the doctors to do their thing and then when that failed, he showed his awesome compassion and mercy. I am so blessed.
My son is here with me now and no matter what happens, he is alive and is loved unconditionally. Everyday is a testimony to God's love.
Words do not describe the feeling in my heart when my Bobby talks to the baby. He sings to him and tells him about what life is going to be like when we can actually hold him in our arms.
This has been an experience that I never thought I would know. All because of the mercy and compassion of my heavenly Father.
Bobby has given me a paper with scriptures on it to help when I worry about our son.
One that sticks out to me is Psalm 86:5
"For thou, LORD, art good, and ready to forgive; and plenteous in mercy unto all them that call upon thee."
I was upset with God when our five foster children had to leave. I loved them more than myself.
It took a while but I realized they didn't belong to me, God allowed them to bless our lives for a time. I had to give them back to God and let him restore their family. It wasn't until I finally released them in my heart that God blessed me beyond measure. We still have a call to help children and I would take in as many as possible, but God saw my heart and gave me a forever child.
I don't know how God would work in your life and I can't promise that he will do for you what he did for me, he might do much more, but in releasing my hurt and anger I found peace and I was grateful just for that.
I believe in miracles! How about you?
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Pondering ...
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
The Whites Rock!
I have been wanting a rocking chair so bad, but I keep thinking there are so many other things to get for baby. The other day I was talking to one of our members, Ondra White, (To those who don't know her she is a very sweet and helpful person.)out of the blue she asked me if I wanted a rocking chair! I was elated. I love my rocking chair!!! Thank you so much Tim, Ondra, Micah, and Gracee!
PS. Please pray for Gracee. She has been very sick.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Bountiful Blessings!
Like it has for everyone, things have been tight in the Sutton home. Usually I am very good at window shopping, but since we found out that we were having a son I want to buy everything. Not good!LOL!
Well the Lord has blessed me with surprise packages and I thought I'd share them with you.
1) Bobby's mom surprised as with a package in the mail. She made this beautiful card and sent two of the sweetest outfits.
2) Today Bobby's Aunt sent us another surprise package. A blanket and little shoes. They are so adorable!
3) Tonight at church, Sis. Vicky gave us his first "Old Navy" outfit. It was sooooooooooo cute and very thoughtful! Love ya Vic!
Well, OK, I have splurged a little. On the way to visit Erika and Lance in Georgia we stopped at Cracker Barrel and I saw this for 70% off. It was before we knew we were having a boy. I was holding it in the van like I would a baby and told Bobby that I wasn't so sure that Hope was going to be Hope! LOL! I love it!
Its John Deer!
The day we found out that we were having a son I bought these at Walmart instead of doughnuts!LOL!
When we were in Nicaragua several years ago I bought this just in case we ever had a son.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
18 Weeks!
I am 18 weeks today!!!! Yeah God. I have learned to cherish every moment everyday that I carry my son with me. This has truly been God's miracle. A surprise from out of the blue. What others said was impossible, God spoke the word and it was done.
Yes, I get scared. With all the complications that have come up, but God has been with me through every one. I was praying this morning and God reminded me that in the mist of all the uncertainty and concern about the baby, I have much to be thankful for.
1) We found out pretty early on that I was pregnant. Almost two months pregnant. Which gave us time to pray and have others to be praying. Some thought we were too early to tell people, and I was even hesitant, but Bobby said people could pray. We knew this pregnancy would have risks. My age, the diabetes, but we know the power of prayer.
2) Had I not been high risk, I would not have as many ultrasounds and literally see the whole development of my child. (Which has been awesome!)
3) My hair had started falling out after I lost weight, so my hair dresser told me to take prenatal vitamins. So I was taking vitamins weeks before I found out that I was pregnant. Which was great for our son.
4) I thought my diabetes meds was what was making me so sick, so I stopped taking them. One of them had not been checked for pregnant women. Thank you Jesus for direction.
5) While in the ER, each time I saw people in bad shape and prayed for them. Also one of my visits led to us getting one of the best fetal specialist in Nashville.
6) I am having to depend fully and completely on God.
There are so many more things, but I'd just like to keep those and ponder them in my heart.
I don't understand everything that we have been through in this last year, but I am beginning to take deep breaths and trust that God knows and sees it all. The things I need to work on, he'll lead me through them and the things that are out of my control, are never out of his.
One of the other neat things during this was that I was suppose to take a temp job in Alaska with excellent benefits and I'd get to be with the children again. I remember praying Lord, the only way I can get out of this commitment if it is not your will, is if I am pregnant and I laughed. The day before I was to start work the same doctor who said I couldn't have a child, told me I was going to have a child. How neat was that!
I was still afraid I wouldn't be able to get out of my commitment without harsh words, the school had gotten a new principal and I did not know him very well. He told me, "Annette, God has bigger plans for you", and with that I went back to TN.
Ahh! Hormones ... see how I ramble!
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Playing The Same Old Song!
Bed rest again!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This boy better love his mommy! I feel him moving. Poor Bobby he wants to so bad but it just isn't time yet! Yesterday the baby kicked a few times hard enough that I could barely feel him on the outside with my hand. I was calling for Bobby but he was outside checking the mail and missed it.
We spent the next forever with Bobby talking to the baby trying to get it to kick me. So cute!
Friday, March 13, 2009
With All The Many Miracles ...
Yes, I said him! We are going to have a bouncing baby boy and I am so excited!
The problem is coming up with the perfect name for the perfect boy!
I have been put on bed rest yet again, but I am going to try to make it for the revival tomorrow. Bobby has asked me to stay home tonight because tomorrow will be a long day and he thinks I need my strength. I am not discouraged. God has given us this baby boy and I am trusting him to finish what he started!
